Summer

Time travels at an incredible speed, doesn't it? To a point that it's rather scary. Merciless chronology. The last post dated back to the month of May, and now it's the middle of August. The beginning of summer seemed like just yesterday; and now it's already towards the end of summer. Four more months to go and it's my first year anniversary in the States. Wonder how much I've changed, maybe still the same; but I've definitely seeen a lot more than before.
Today is my last day of summer class, and I'm getting the feeling that I am going to miss this session. It's been hectic, taxing, demanding and tiring, no doubt about that, but I've learned, and that's what it's all about. First from the communication class, later from multicultural studies class. I really find myself very lucky to be getting all these great instructors who throw out their passion for subjects they are teaching.
Jason Thomson, my instructor for communication class. Great teacher with a strong passion for public speaking. He is my inspiration when it comes to giving speeches. I never knew that side of me and he managed to unlock my sleeping passion for speaking. I doubt I will ever forget him. Speaking is a part of our life, and he taught me a lot. Again, great instructor who fires up for speeches. I will always remember all the encouragements and motivations he gave me each time I spoke to him. He is now teaching in New York, and I extend my deepest, greatest respect and blessings to him.
And then there is Greg Keller, who teaches me multicultural studies. I didn't feel passionately for this subject, simply because racism doesn't bothers me at all. Maybe some time in the future, but definitely not now. However, he is the first man whom i encounter to have such great enthusiasm towards the issue of racism. He speaks passionately about this subject for the past two decades. He reminds me of teachers in highschools, and of course he is a teacher in highschool by profession and only comes to the university over the summer. I was never too fond of his way of teaching, perhaps it's due to my lack of interest towards this subject. But I must say, towards the end, he changed my perspectives towards race, class, gender and culture issues. He opened my eyes and make me aware of these issues. Too bad that I realize this too late for this class. Otherwise, I would have done things more passionately. Anyhow, I did do my best for this class, as a student, but not as a learner, I regret that I didn't pour my heart to this subject. Anyhow, I would still like to express my gratitude to Mr. Keller, for teaching me something I never knew, or less, thought about.

impromptu speech

did an impromptu speech today, and oh my God... the experience was horrendous! how i wished i could just dig a hole and bury myself alive!

and to think that one of my mates actually suggested i take public speaking as a minor, i could almost imagine the amount of pressure that is going to be on me, all the sleepless nights that i would have to endure, and of course thinking of more holes to dig, and perhaps even getting my tombstone ready just in case my blood pressure and heart give in during one of those speeches that i would have to make.

i don't think i fared well today. i tried to deliver my best, but for some reason, i am always better screwing up something than making the best out of it.

just dreadful...

bid goodbye to my reputation, muacks... so long!!!

ghost from the past (credit to ladymysti)

ghost from the past is haunting me again.

i was reading one of my dear cousin's posts in her blog which talks about ghost. and suddenly it gave me a chill as i recall two of my most recent emails. one followed by another, from two different sources. as if there were carefully planned and designed to come against me. i won't be surprised if those sources actually communicated, but logically it's very unlikely. again, this world is filled with surprises, who knows?

miss you..

and did i mention i am going to miss those two men? haha... if ever they are going to read this blog of mine, just want them to know that they did great. but i highly doubt they are going to find my blog. haha...

anyway, going to miss them a lot! *sob sob*

instructors

an agreeable instructor is hard to find these days, don't you think so?
it hasn't been an enjoyable journey since i came here, US has exposed me to 'varieties', and i wasn't quite ready to accept such 'species' of people. they are all fine, trust me, it's just a different story when it comes down to business, or in my case, studies/grades...whatever...

but so far, i enjoyed two instructors' company the most. not that they have really given me one on a personal basis, heh... but i must comment that i love their classes the best. one who happens to be a professor/lawyer/novelist/play writer who of course teaches business law is definitely a charming man. his humour was mild but sweet, and his classes were just the way to start the day. all the classes i had with him were at 7.30 in the morning. not exactly the best time for sleepyheads like me, it was a blast nonetheless. and i even happened to walk with him on a couple of occations and we had some short chats about malaysia, basically. i will not forget my first impression of him, he reminds me of albert einstein, with his hair, and perhaps even his way of dressing. as i said, very charming.

and the next would be a TA (teacher assistant) from computer programming class. after having been through this whole semester of programming, i finally, well actually not finally, i knew this a long time ago, but i shall officially declare it now that i am not a programming person, and not in a million years to come. however, i must give this TA some credits. i have never once seen my professor for this class, all my classes for this subjuct were taken over by TAs, and so they are our teacher. there were 3 in total, but i've only seen 2, hmmm... wonder why people love to play hide and seek in universities, or was it just mine. anyway, one is in charge of theory classes and the other one, lab(practical classes). i prefer the lab guy. never was too fond of him or his classes since the beginning, but after one occasion which happens to be my fault ( i forgotten to submit my homework ), and begged for mercy from him ( because every homework is taken into account for finals ), he gave me his warning which really made me laugh, because being also a student himself, he was trying very hard to be a teacher. and so the weird combination made him extremely cute. and the funny thing is, he is only a teacher for my classes, and a student for the rest of the time, and on top of that, he is also my neighbour (what a world!)! imagine him dressed in formal for my classes and then the next thing you see is him dressing up like any of us, with a school bag and sneakers. i remember once running into him during evening, and that is the time when all are ready to go home after class. he just had his lessons done for the day so he sat down (dropped himself) at one of those back seats in the bus and my eyes were glued to him and he was looking at me at the corner of his eyes. and for some reasons, i started laughing. hahaha... silly of me. and then i remember a friend who happens to be riding on the same bus that day asked him a question from his homework he had given us. like any students who is tired from a day of lessons, he barked at us and said,"don't talk to me about schoolwork now!" O_O" cute guy...

that's it for Terry Shaff, and Arvind Visvanathan. cheers to them!

still water

days are too painful to be remembered. wished to blog it and rant it all out, but decided against the idea. days are just too painful...

snoopy

nothing in particular to write today, just feel like taking a photo with dear snoopy. =p